I was sad, confused, and most of all lost.
I was sad, confused, and most of all lost. I still remember like it was yesterday and it has stayed with me It stayed with you though, no matter how much you had moved on. It was like a dark spot in the back of my mind that I kept to myself, or only thought about alone.
What am I talking about? No, just a guy who happened to be a musician thrown into international spotlight. People can understand John Lennon, but to some Kurt Cobain seems like a curmudgeon yes, he wrote a song by that title as well who was unhappy about being a brilliant artist.
You could argue if he was brilliant. The point is, many of us felt that he was. Growing up, I was a depressed, often in trouble, and out of control teenager.
Music really does calm the savage beast, and it was music I could relate to. My ultimate goals were to get the Sassy magazine, and The Advocate issue. Awful, I know, and now I did it, yes I feel bad. I still have ever single one of those clippings in a very safe spot in a huge photo album.
Now I realize how selfish I was, driven by that feeling of trying to find more, to try and understand this person who had been the first "celebrity" who had ever become an unintentional spokesperson for himself and people like us.
For once, it felt like it was okay. As I was diagnosed bipolar, it seemed okay because so many other awesome people had been too - including Kurt Cobain.
I began to no longer feel ashamed. Being a guitar player, I felt like that was the perfect permanent tribute and it became one of my all time favorite presents from my parents. I picked up the guitar because I wanted to learn Nirvana songs, pausing Nirvana Unplugged, and asking my dad if he could make out that one chord Then I taught myself tabs, and I opened the code to play any Nirvana song I liked.
The guitar is dusty, protected, and put aside so I could work towards school and a career. Time moved on, Nirvana stayed my favorite band, but I ceased to talk about them as feverishly as I once did. My old friends often ask "You still like Nirvana? But talking about his ghost seemed overkill.
Others would spend their lives creating a shrine to his memory, I kept a candle lit, but I needed to make something of my life besides being a die hard fan.
I felt very mixed. I understand some wanting to grab more pieces of a too short puzzle with missing pieces, but I could never bring myself to buy these things. I noticed for the first time, this is what people my age did with people like Jim Morrison, Jimi Hendrix, etc.
When Journals was released, everyone came at me with offers to get it for me or push me to buy it People from all backgrounds were reading it, and most had nothing but positive things to say. People who had known I was a Nirvana for such a long time, would come to me and say they understood exactly what it was that was special -- but nameless.
It just felt strange, and I realized how ironic it was that now after all these years of scavenging, I could have the biggest piece of allKurt Cobain: Journals by Kurt Cobain pp, Viking, £ There have been a lot of wrong-headed words spoken and scribbled about Kurt Cobain of late. "The most influential American musician since.
Journals is a collection of writings and drawings by Kurt Cobain, who was the lead singer and guitarist of Nirvana.
Though the content is undated, it is arranged in approximately chronological order. Though the content is undated, it is arranged in approximately chronological initiativeblog.comation date: Hardcover, Paperback.
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Shop with confidence. The lyrics notebook and personal journals of Kurt Cobain, iconic singer of the band Nirvana. Kurt Cobain filled dozens of notebooks with lyrics, drawings, and writings about his plans for Nirvana and his thoughts about fame, the state of music, and the people who bought and sold him and his initiativeblog.coms: i got this book after watching montage of heck, hoping to get more insight into kurt cobain i wish i could say that i did, but that wasn't the case, as this book is a lot of small snippets of journal entries or sketches, nothing really substantial at all.
by Kurt Cobain Viking £20, pp 'I hope I die before I become Pete Townshend,' wrote Kurt Cobain in his journal in the middle of one of .